8.13.2004
43 days n counting. how much time left to promos. i need to work. basing on my current pathetic standard, i could get promoted and take 4 subs still.. but obviously, tt's nt enuff..
anyway, i will mug from now on. i shall complete all my tutorials and all the extra but essential stuff. wish me luck~
okay.. anyway, just failed another maths test... wonder wat's going wrong.. i felt so tensed up during the maths test. lost all my composure and most of my marks. i knew the exact method to do all the questions, but i press calculator wrongly for one, omitted reading a piece of critical information, read wrongly for another... sigh... i need to regain my confidence in doing these questions.. it could be due to under-preparation, thus i will mug all my tutorials from now on.
been preparing for interact installation as emcee. quite a fun experience. it's nt so easy to be an emcee as i thot. need to watch pacing etc... all the crappy stuff for oral, but then have to keep cool and calm, with a gentle push of ur lips for that gentle smile. argh.. a nice experience nevertheless.. after all, if cock up, wont really die rite? :D
that day, i was looking back at my 8 months in HC. i just realised sadly that it has evolved to a very sad state, for me at least. primarily, because of my class.. it's just too sad lar... work could play a part, but still i feel that my class's dynamics r getting rather sad. at first, the class could gel rather well.. orientation, CNY, JTS, n all the fun n exciting stuff. then slowly, pple started to click.. relations seem to turn bad. though there are some that become really gd, but still, it saddens me to see that some has worsen. it has evolved to like my senior class. for them, the girls n guys r well seperated. then locals n scholars r oso. the scholar n local thing, i dont really care.. but for the other type, i just think that it's just so disappointin..
feeling very exhuasted, be it mentally, physically or wat.. but need to hang on, for my own self, my own sake. it's time to work for my own
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