information is indeed one of the hardest achievable things in the world. when one suffers from the acute lack of information, the feeling is extremely intolerable. like the soccer squad... apparently, coach is delaying the decision till tml.. most of us have waited for practically like 2 months plus.. n the feeling is rather tense. dont know who will be in or wat.. think pple r in it nt for the cca pts or wat.. but i believe pple r in it for the chance to play n enjoy the dream of playing competitive football. it's like the chance in your life time.
anyways, the lack of information in many areas r oso suffocating.. many impt life decisions r based on information, or percieved information, but when one has nothing, it is really hard to gauge the success n the possible benefits etc. sigh.. :(

Sculpted@11:22 pm

finally the weekend. can rest n recover n play. BT is like soon.. and i nt really into studying yet :(
anyways, x-country today, was filled wif much adventure. n it's all because i NEVER run. was afraid my knee gash would re-open so took no risks.
anyway, adventures was plentiful. but before on to those adventures, gt to really "praise" my classmate. as the college pple were on the high stands, we could over look everything. so when the little sec 1 boys were all gathered tgt to run the race, she immediately exclaimed in an extremely loud voice " SO CUTE!" obviously, it gt the attention of many pple. -_-

#1. finding the way to the macs at turf city. some how the track thru unknown territory was quite tough. my waterproof uni was drenched at the end of it.. and it was really quite bad. but anyways, had a real "enriching" time trudging our way there. gt the nice sun shining on us, then had to navigate thru dont know wat carparks n roads. gt stuck in the middle of the road, wif cars zooming past as well. how cool.

#2. buying drinks at giant there. by some really last minute n unreasonable "rule", students weren't allowed to shop at giant. which was like downright gay. road side stalls were pitching drinks at twice the price of the ones in the market, n they were side by side. i bet those side stalls could be an interesting scheme by the school to empty our wallets further. anyway, had to slipped my way into giant by a less known stairway. then some tchs boy came n ATTEMPT to stop me. obviously, it would take more than that to stop me, but i really feel sorry for that boy, coz i was rather mean n pissed at that pt of time. thanks to the wonderful school ruling n almost wonderful economical scheming. anyways, was there to buy drinks for the class girls... then end up nt buyin enuff.. coz i miscounted :s then was in an awkward situation.. anyway, wormed my way outta it somehow.

#3. getting out of there early. basically there was 3 main ways to get out of there. 2 were nicely blocked. at first tried the 3rd, but gt caught by some hated teacher. so had to wait for the winds n stars again n when all was calm, i found a 4th route. it was just into the 2nd lvl restuarants above the 1st exit. some how the nice little staircase was unguarded, so me n 3 other classmates dashed to freedom. as we were 4 rather easily spotted target wif big bags, so apparently, we heard some shouting "OEI!" at us. instinct kicked in so did adrenaline. we ran for our lives! run run run... then dashed into building n disappear down another staircase, hopin to throw off the pursuing dogs. n our sudden change of course worked! no more dogs snapping at our heels :D after that, was rather plain sailing. went out the big car park, but still we were cautious of any ambush. and luckily there was none. however as a last ditch effort, there was a lone ranger placed at the bus stop to prevent us. sadly, he was spotted readily n we evaded him easily, then went to 7-11 for some much needed drinks n rest. with that, the escape was complete n i manage to reach home early!

Sculpted@12:13 am

Been having much soccer friendlies n trng recently. Getting quite a bit of bruises and gashes as well. L Been performing averagely only for the recent time frame.. hope that it would be suffice to hold a place in the final team of 20. Seems that competition is very tough this year wif so many good players vying for those few limited spots. Then, CO oso have to “cut squad” as well for SYF. Shall have to find some means to juggle both and perform well in these 2 aspects.

Recently, been very very slack. Did minimum amt of work.. and I think it’s about time to start doing again, but some how the motivation is lacking.. having great amounts of inertia and BT is round the corner. How sian.. but that is the life of j2. quite glad nt taking S papers, or else I would be like so dead. I really need 25 hours a day, or the ability to teleport or create clones if I took S papers. But fate has it that I’m nt overly pushed.

Anyways, things been going rather well, with many things to be glad of J But still improvement could be done, especially certain friendships which r kinda in a very stagnant phrase, even declining if I must add. It really takes 2 hands to clap, no matter how much one tries, if the other party just don’t care, it becomes a case of “good try”. To try harder is also not really feasible, after all, the harder u try, the more negative effects it may result in, so sometimes I wonder why bother… But then again, there r still some others whom r the complete opposite and make life all the more enjoyable and happening! Haha :D

Sculpted@11:20 pm

JTS today. nothing much.. ate n ate n ate. talk a bit, n went to guess some lame stuff. arh well.. all in a day's entertainment after all. for JTS the seating was rather segmented which kinda defeats the purpose of it. anyways, they chose it themselves, so let them enjoy lor. then realise that some pple can be classified in the category of "studying in mixed school coz all JCs in singapore r mixed."

have been rather slack recently... dont seem to have the motivation to do my phys n econs at all.. amazingly, i seem to like to do my maths more n more.. hrmm.. wat a complete difference from last year.. where i would totally shun away from maths n embrace phys n econs. arh well.. j2 liao.. as everybody says "mug hard!"

some days ago, my maths lecturer was giving this analogy of a theorem. he was saying, it (the theorem) wasnt a complete theorem. it is like trying to cover a floor wif less than sufficient amount of carpet. if u arrange one corner nicely, another side would be all messed up. then u go settle that side, u turn back to see that ur original corner is in shambles. i realise that this is kinda applicable to certain things in my life. need to buy a larger carpet liao.

Sculpted@1:38 am

the weather is really terrible. terribly hot n humid. this morn, during physt tut, it was so hot that i couldnt even concentrate n was in this semi-awake state, just trying to hang out for that 2 periods.. argh.. then wanted to go lounge to continue slping, but then i met my fren n end up talking away my free period away. haha.. quite worthy trade after all, as in i would rather spend time catchin-up wif my fren then ATTEMPTING to slp in the noisy lounge. however, she was making real jealous abt the taiwan trip again.... argh... i could have went if nt for the NAC competition.. sigh :s

oh yes, my very nice econs tutor gave the class nice chocs, n i managed to attain the blackforest flavour one! that day, while buying chocs for v-day, i saw the choc n the price, n i couldnt bear to buy.. too expensive.. but since i gt a free packet, i was happily gorging on it to keep me awake during f maths lect. there the nice coca balls n cherry fillings in different chocolate! officially, my favourite chocolate for the moment! Realised that the recent f maths topics r rather manageable, as in i'm nt a pure maths person, so i kinda like the recent topics like stats, mechanics etc. hope there is more to come, and no more of all those irritating pure maths subs!

then have a soccer friendly today.. didnt play very badly nor well either.. though i learn an impt lesson in learning how to deal wif refree-ing that doesnt go ur way. must learn how to deal in an adverse situation especially on the field where time is short, and every single movement n manuever must be excuted perfectly. so gt a nice learning pt today :)

Sculpted@10:30 pm

just finished delievering out all the chocs n cards which i made myself. i feel a bit proud of the card thingy, coz i self-made it and that it's like my 1st attempt.. hopefully, it wasnt too bad :p

realised that many pple didnt expect me to give them chocs. hrmm... do i look so evil not to be a nice guy? :P haha.. at least some pple still did return some gifts, which is quite nice! there's this cute little woolly piggy, which some said it was a bear, sheep, dog... ... -_-"" then gt a small tile thingy, which i still cant figure out wat it is. then there's the pig ang bao -_-" n my angel/mortal gave me this keychain which says "hottie". i was super cold-ed by it when i saw that.. n it is in red! haiz.. but she quite observant, realised that i use carabeana (spell wrongly?), so she brought me quite nice one. n there's the nice test tube thingy wif a nice msg~ oso gt a kitty lolli n cookie wif my inital on it. still have this nice photo frame, though rather unappropriately labelled... n a very very nice glass~
regrettably, i didnt give the person whom gave me the glass smtg back.. i feel rather bad :( but i realised that i gave her much in the past liao, so should feel less guilty. i'm just being self-comforting eh? haha :D
and here's a BIG thank you for all those whom gave me all those nice gifts! :)

one rather impt thing i realised today was also that smiles r indeed infectious lor.. as in it feels real good to give pple something nice, then they like beam brighter than the sun, then it feels real shuang. like some pple whom i gave a pink balloon to, could see that they really liked it, and it simply felt good. as in a simple act could bring them so much laughter n joy is really worth it, and in return one do get infected by it. haha :)

Sculpted@12:34 am

CNY been relatively fun, going around to various relatives and frens houses to bai nian. also, went to a few teachers' house as well. nothing really spetacular, except that made some nice mahjong hands that day. pity nvr play money, if nt could won a bit :p but then again, i shouldnt be greedy, the moment money is involved, all my luck goes out of the door, so it's better this way.

okie.. CNY festive season for students finally has come to an end. have to once again resume mugging. but anyway, tml it is friendship aka valentine's day. have quite some stuff to give away tml.. feel a bit like santa. but much thinner only :p
oh yar.. gt inspiration to do a nice card-thingy to go along wif my chocs. For those whom recieve it, u get wat i mean. hope you find it nice.. after all, i dont really have much experience n luck wif such artisitc stuff :D

Sculpted@12:49 am

woke up late today, n reach school late :p but sitll manage to hang around the central plaza, visit a few stalls, took a few photos. nothing spectacular but good enuff.
only regretful thing was the interact thingy that i promised to help out.. feel very guilty about it for forgetting totally... :(
had the fact. dance thingy today. let's just say that i'm so glad it's all over. i think on the stage was the worse time ever i danced that dance. anyways, it's over!!! enjoy~ i've done my part for it, no regrets :D
it's the new year soon. think going to be like most other CNY, the usual stuff. i'm glad about it and have no qualms about anything :)
shall enjoy meeting my relatives again.. after all, nvr see them for quite a time.. like how my aunts/uncles/cousins are, listen to their new stories and stuff, maybe play a bit of cards here n there.. socialise a bit. enjoy myself, or else otherwise really have no chance to keep in touch n all :)
watched a nice movie -- constantine. was good to watch wif my brother as well, long time since we last watch a movie together n i think it will be a long time b4 we will watch another one. i like the humour provided in the show. it was a breed apart from all the lame n corny jokes that i been listening to recently.. as in some of them really deserve a good laugh. maybe some would find it slighty crude or wat, but everyone is entitled to his/her view. so this is just a view of mine :)
certain pple have been rather not so friendly recently. this time i rather sure it's nt my fault.. so since it's their choice nt to make effort, then too bad, it takes 2 hands to clap after all. but been very glad that many other frenship has become much better recently.. so shall keep it that way.. in life, u gain some, u lose some. just try to win as many, lose as little. but remember, dont be greedy ;)

Sculpted@10:01 pm

CNY!
it's here! yay~ now in a total CNY mood, no work, no nothing. muhahha.. shall play it away!!

anyway, on a clamer tone, gt fact. dance session. i have to dance on stage :s
seriously, i still dont really get why i'm the dance IC. as in out of the 8 dance ICs, there's 6 MAD, 1 chinese dance, n guess who's the last one that's not affliated to any dancing organisation? ME!!
sigh.. shall just do my best for that 3min odd.. hope it goes well.

and to my rather big surprise, my class is going out as a class!?! it's like one of the miracles of the world man. this friday, to my CT's house, which is quite cool.
shall slp soon. blog nxt time

Sculpted@1:46 am

i feel in the CNY mood.
the mood where one just does ntg but eat, slp, play, get red packets and basically enjoy life.
no more tutorial doing for a week! but have to do smtg for the econs lect test on monday.. shall work a bit once i wake up :) homework is managable nowadays, but CCAs still keeps me rather busy.

just went for CO CNY reunion dinner today.. nt a very well attended event, wif there being more seniors than juniors, despite the fact that it's suppose to be after their CO orientation.. i remember last year, there was like so many people there, everybody was busy enjoying themselves and i think it was ever since that day that my section got off well together :) then had all the numerous outings which also contributed to the camaraderie. but nowadays, it seems hard for this to continue onto the next generation.. then "pei" my fren home on the way to avoid being a lightbulb on the way back. the awkwardness of being a lightbulb is one of the worse possible feelings that one has to endure and i'm not interested in repeatedly feel it. after all, i do get enough of it last year in my class and this is year is not really too much of an exception. but more importantly oso could use the time to talk wif my fren n benefit the frenship :)

final selection of soccer team is coming up.. dont know whether i will survive the cut.. nevertheless have to continue to at least to maintain the fitness level in order to be ready if i do get selected. hope that after so long a period of hard-work, it would pay-off.

learned/realised a few important things recently:

1) everyone is entitled to his/her own view. i realised that one cannot judge any based on one's own thinking, but to take into account the other's view and not to try to impose one own's thinking on to the person. applies extremely prominently to things pertaining in my class, especially with the situation being in some form of an equilibrium.

2) not to shoot one's mouth off. have this problem ever since, being trying hard to correct it, but there has been the occassional slip. it's really damm sian sometimes, when just a sentence can just decimate everything.

3) to steel against the fluctuations of the heart. this is necessary on as to be able to keep focus on more important things n let emotions unnecessarily affect me.

4) to accept things more readily. this is not asking one to be accept all n every single thing, but it's more of to take things in a "open" manner especially bad ones. after all, must be like the chinese saying : " na2 de2 qi3, fang4 de2 xia4." must be to accept things, n move on.

Sculpted@4:05 am

realised that i been staying back in school for consecutive dont know how many days... seriously have forgotten the afternoon view of my house, the pleasure of afternoon naps... sigh :*(

show time for fac. dance is coming up way too soon.. it's like nxt tuesday! n i dont feel really prepared for it.. but have been teaching quite some juniors recently.. when we organise official session, barely anyone turns up, then they keep on askin for additional sessions.. haha.. anyway, i think that as long as got people eager to learn n all, i dont see y shouldnt i teach them.. it's something one kinda should feel proud abt anyway.. hrmm...

preparing a list of things to buy for v-day... realised that my budget would kinda burst rather badly.. so have to do a lot of adjustments :(
i still kinda undecided on many things, like wat to buy n etc... *blah blah*
shouldnt be thinking abt this now.. but if i dont do it like now, i'm not going to do it during CNY. i'll totally slacken throughout for the entire period.. play play play, get ang bao!! :D
so do now lor.. go do bit of buyin stuff as well soon.. then can settle this liao..
n just realise that i gt CCAs packed up till 7 at least on the day itself.. :(

Sculpted@10:44 pm