here i am, taking a short little break from tutorial mugging. it's a seemigly never-ending race to keep up tutorials.. i'm simply wonder how do some pple keep up work wif lecture pace. either they have mug like mad, is PRO-ly smart (i know a few) or has 48 hours a day.

anyway, that's nt the idea for today. today, i shall talk abt phys. in particular, frequencies.
as everyone would know, in order to recieve effective communication, the reciever must be at the same frequency as that of the transmitter.
for radio n all other sorts of mechanical devices, their freq. is readily set to operational levels and are usually not easily subjected to changes, be it sudden or gradual.
however, for humans, in particular one's frens, thier frequencies tend to oscillate wildly and immensly. previously, a common frequency was easily determined and obtained for me and my fren, communication flourished easily in spite of inherent and apparent differences. now, in spite of inherent and apparent similiarities, a common frequency has never since been re-achieved. depsite scanning the whole limits of possible frequency, the matching reciever frequency has not been found. maybe i have moved into a range of possible frequencies vastly differently and that it has been the case for my fren as well, but it simply matters much.
while some have gone on and found their own optimal frequency ranges, contact is still possible due to the presence of overlapping frequency channel. acting as both transmittor and reciever.

so it is my wish that i can re-find that optimal frequency channel that is common.

Sculpted@9:00 pm

wat the hell is the problem wif the Pc game, battlefield for middle earth (BFME) ???!!!
first, when i brought a copy from queensway 2 wks ago, i tested it out, n i realised that the cd coding gt prob. so i went back to change, all the way back to queensway, thinking that it was some corrupted cd. then it confirmed my theory of a corrupted cd programming.. okay.. so i went back to change for some other games (which worked nicely).
then after that, i asked my fren to help me shop for it in m'sia. today, tried out the game n installed it successfully in my comp, with my heart jumping up n down all the way, eagerly waiting to play it! going to thrash some orcs n goblins wif superior calavary n wizardy blasts!
then it came wif some runtime error... yay... so i gladly spent an hour ++++ to solve it.. went on net to search for alternative cracks etc etc... end up to no avail :"(
so i un-installed n decided that after dinner, will try again.
then by some miracle n some gd luck, i gt it working after dinner!!! the sense of fulfilment n joy was awash me totally for that brief seconds. then i eagerly tried out the tutorial and everything seemed a breeze. BUT BUT BUT that was until i tried out the actual game. okay.. it didnt hang on me. but 15 mins into the game, ALL my structures would automatically go BOOM! n i lose immediately. gg.

had my NAPFA today... though i felt totally inadequately prepared for it. nvr train for like 2 wks liao :( but somehow i did well for some stations. like my shuttle run. 9.1 seconds! OMG, i thot i heard 10.1 seconds when i ran pass... then my frens were like gasping and i thot to myself 10.1 is average wat.. then i heard 9.1 seconds :) moderately proud of myself. 2.4 timing was quite okay lar.. considering my severe lack of fitness.. 11.01, hat's a C. 11.00 is a B.

Sculpted@10:42 pm

By some miracle force, my father has agreed to sponsor my trip to Europe. A whooping 2.8k! when my mum told me he was consenting to it at first, my jaw immediately dropped and was in total shock n disbelieve for 2.25 seconds (stun length). after that, my father quizzed me repeatedly on european history and thankfully i was able to give answers which were moderately passably except for one question, the creation of the division of the East-West Germany. Forgot to mention the russian n Usa troops marching in.. then he went on to comment that he himself very much want to go europe, but my mum is unable to handle the 14 hour long flight and thus w/o company he is unable to go. at this pt, then i realised something. that my father was giving me the chance to experience something which he himself nvr did. it's an extremely noble act of his, for he gains nothing but loses 2.8k or more in liquidity just to send me overseas. thinking back, i realised that over the years, for educational tours, he has always fully sponsored them for both me n brother. Would probably read up a bit more to maximise the trip utility and keep a log of events and pictures, just to hope that my parents would be able to catch a glimpse of europe. i hope i would be able to provide some form of insight. In all, i'm truly grateful to this opportunity to fulfil one of my dreams. n it has definitely provided some much needed fuel for my motivation in these months leading up to the A lvls. I simply do not want to disappoint my parents again.

Frankfurt, Berlin, Prague.

Sculpted@11:16 pm

Blogging has seem to be something of low priority recently.
I realise that sometimes i have much to say, much to tell, but when it comes to typing it all out, i just feel suddenly immensly sian diao.. then i'll just close the explorer window n slp. it has also been the case for work.. no matter how i will myself to finish the work.. when it boils down to the actual doing, i seem to falter in the face of the paper :(

apparently, there's this 10 day europe trip to visit some nice places in berlin, prague. however, the prices r quite high.. n i think finances would be my blocking stone towards going. i wished i could go.. europe to me is a dream destination! but i shall see my luck. after all, it's nt something which i currently can afford now.

Not so long ago, was having dinner wif 2 of my frens at coro. we ended up talking for ard 2++ hours. wat we talked abt made me realised certain things in my life.
she was saying something of leading a life that was fulfilling. come to think of it, above all the mugging n competition, wat do we really want at the end of the day? the A degree bearing the hc logo? tt's nt for me.. i thot over it n realised that wat i really want is frens whom would continue to be an integral part of my life. but then again, practical issues have to be considered.. still need money to survive n all.. so possibly choose a career that is not routine.

Sculpted@11:54 pm

Aeons ago since i last blogged?
shall hav a short update on my status. results for BT accurately confirms the theory that results are directly proportionate to the amount of effort spent. so i didnt put in mich effort for gp, phys, moderate effort for the rest.
gt my rather nice soccer "jersey" today. number 23. quite compassionate of them to allow the non-playing pple to get the jersey. FOC some more. comparatively, other ccas r lacking in this area.
went for a maths comp today, set mostly by my PRO classmates.. which was rather okay actually.. but had all those stupid geometry problems, which i totally sucked at. i realised that i prefer logic problems, like statistics, probability, etc. thus i alwys felt that i like gp n econs much more, BUT my language totally sucks.. that's y i get sucky grades. shall try to read more (have borrowed from my class resident library), read more papers in a bid to improve my language.. a constant comment on my gp essays is "ur pts r gd n relevant, but it is murkily expressed and nt clear." language problems.
friendships are now mostly going on quite okay.. composure n sensitivity is the key to it, i realised.. hopefully it will stay this way :)

Sculpted@10:39 pm

well i just realised that these few days are rather deciding for me. the soccer team, CO selection team would be out. anyways, i have failed the 1st one, n the 2nd will be revealed tml... so yar.. just wait n see.
though all these following words may be sound as self-comforting words to some, but wat i truly felt over the months of trng wif the team was one that of enriching experience. the soccer tactical n technical aspect has been taught v.well to me. no one to blame but myself.. shall hopefully get a jersey number(23?), for memory sake :p but most importantly, would try to go down n support the team as and when i can. after all, down there playing are my frens, my soccer buddies. it could be naive thinking on my part at the end of the day, which i have often done.. so be it then.. let me be a fool for one more time.
maybe it's a sign to start working on my academics. but that will depend on my 2nd cca results. to me, the cca pts is totally irrelevant.. who doesnt want to try his best n try to do something?

Sculpted@10:49 pm

i just realised that i've not blogged for quite a while now.
to think of why i nvr blogged would result me giving myself a blank answer.
i dont know y.. i wasnt doing my work. i didnt sleep early. so anyway, it doesnt really matter.. as always.. back to blogging here i'm again.

For me, life was colourful once. filled wif vivid images, neverending humour n laughters, pleasant vibes filled the air and it was scenes with myraid of hues. motivation was plentiful and energizing, work could be dispatched away wif the utmost speed with minimal errors.
yet now, though my eyes still do continue to show the world to me as clearly as ever with the 7 colours of the rainbow, my brain registers it no differently from that of black and white. motivation has shown itself to the door, laughter is a rare delicacy and humour is simply non-existent. what is wrong, i do not know and i do not seem to be attempting to find out, letting my days slip past me slowly. i really feel like a drunkard, intoxicated wif the bottles of computer games and television programmes. hopefully, they will be replaced by cans of tutorials and homework soon.

The greatest gift is to love and be loved.
I wish only for colour to return to my life.

Sculpted@10:19 pm