oops... guess i was MIA for too long. yeah, ms fatbean, here's the update!
bah.. why do all the activities clash tgt? anyways, short update on activites. just came from a s'pore hotel stay in that my PRO fren's parents got. haha... we guys had it instead, coz his parents didnt wanna stay? so it was late night - early mornin games, soccer, snacks. so yeah.. met my rather mad imo clsmate that started working the day after A's. the job's from 9am to 10pm -_-. anyways, patronised her shop n brought quite a fair bit of stuff, mostly for gifts for upcoming bdaes. the hotel was also v.nice, wif many many admenitities, it's really amazing to see a s'pore hotel after visiting foreign ones. ESPN on saturday nights is the icing on the cake!

anyways, be going to lan soon, then it be zoo outing wif dense club on tues. class chalet from tues night to thursday. friday have some crappy RSAF seminar, rather bullshit imo, but shall go nevertheless. shall also extend my passport as well in view of upcoming oversea trips wif my PRO frens to meleka, n my family to thailand.
probably have a outing on saturday, then it's more soccer/ps2/comp action wif my ex-classmate thru camping overnight. considering we were only sec 1/2 classmates, it's quite amazing that we're still relatively in contact :) sunday, would probably be filled wif goin to the hair-dresser for highlight n cut? pending on my hair length as well though.. sigh... and need to prepare n go my aunt's house to borrow something nice to wear for prom i guess. then the next monday after that, would be to meleka till wed. thursday is prom, friday is rest n recovery period.
that's the brief plan... why do everything stack tgt? i had like one week of slacking about after my A's... watched random movies, play much games.

wanted to come out wif a list of wat to do after my A's.
shall put it up tentatively now, in no order or priority.
- Learn to drive a car(my mum knows all abt it)
- Get a job from jan to mindef-ness (hopefully my cousin's relief teaching job pulls thru) :)
- Go out and catch up wif frens b4 they go army (for guys), and before i go army myself (for the ladies). haha ;)
(this is actually a lot more to it, but i'm too lazy to elaborate out :P)
- settle some prom stuff, as mentioned in my plan
- get some order into my slping cycle. (3am to noon slping hours are basically damm unhealthy!) but i'll probably worry at jan? haha
- pack my room? which would probably include some burning...
- clear some PS2 RPGs, n comp RTS. (it's really a lot... n i'm still buying more...)
- pick up some reading again n instilling some reading habits (i find myself reading more papers nowadays, coz of more time)

that's it for the list for now..

watched a bit of inferal affairs 2 on tv today.. ( i missed out on the whole series..) realised it's rather decent and i'll probably torrent for it soon i hope. also happened to chance on a rather interesting indian film. i think it's some kinda of choice film of all, and i could see the reason why. it's called "my best fren's wedding" or smtg on those lines. i could draw a fair bit of parallel btw the main male character n myself in certain ways.
he (as in the char) hides his true feelings behind a wall of smiles and jovial laughter, while not daring to do wat he really wanted. i too, sometimes go out to laugh n joke around, when i'm feeling really terrible inside? is it some form of escapism that i;ve developed over the years? is it some kinda of mask that i put on for convenience? though recently, i've learned to say out more of wat i feel, but still i feel smtg amiss?
is it really possible for pple to accept that one u're just being plain nice and that u'll be there, as a fren, if need be for them? and that you would like nothing more than just plain reciporcration of the platonic frenship? but would they give it?

i guess that there could be some problems wif my communication technique? though i've been constantly seeking improvements and such, but my past mistakes still pains me a fair bit i must say. though i must say i'm glad that i've sorta gotten over the most major huddle of the past. after all, someone that causes u the extreme of emotions will undoubtly be a integral part of one point of one's life.

i just want to walk the sunset wif you
thru the sands and waves
and the wind gently lifting us on.
silence is our shared talk
smile, for i'll always make u have a reason to
cry not, for it would pains me as well
where would i be able to find you?
and would you be waiting for me?

Sculpted@1:36 am

YAY! almost to the end! it's high time that i can truly relax again and slack n basically do nothing.
shall not worry abt how the papers went. nxt year, when i get back my results, i'll just hope for the best, as i've known that i did put in my best into it. however, f maths paper 1 would be a different case. i gt only 1 day to brush it up, i need a miracle. sigh.. :(

oh yeah, illness strikes me at the best possible time again. on the day where i have 3 full papers, which these 3 oso happen to be tricky. it guess i was overly taxed through the ordeal. hopefully, i would be able to scrape thru once again. haha.
speaking of worming my way out, i nearly gt penalised and reported by CPE for writing over time. but oh well, i was given one chance n i escaped! yay!

anyway, after a's, i hope to catch up wif many frens. considering that the beloved SAF would enrol me in their institution soon, i better cherish time to keep in contact. otherwise, when uni n more nonsense comes along, it would all be harder.

Sculpted@10:03 pm

Firstly, many thanks to those whom help made my "mugging" 18th bdae a special one. Thanks to the PROs, for celebrating with me and getting me a ball,dices,hourglasses and a plane. :) Also, thanks to my family for celebrating it with a japanese dinner and cake as well. though not my fav. fruit cake, but it'll do just as fine :) yeah, oso thanks to all those of you whom wished me thru sms, msn. it's the mugging period, so it's understandable :)

despite telling myself that i WOULD study on my bdae for about a week, but i guess no matter wat, studying on ur 18th bdae is atrocious. so i didnt :D
though feeling highly screwed for F maths, which i have not touched at all, i guess it would hopefully be okay. but m glad that had put in much GP, econs, Phys practice. so yeah, hopefully, will be able to do well :)
i think i did more GP/econs essays in the post-prelim period that i ever did before... so oh well. *crosses my fingers*

MINDEF-ness is still on the go. have decided to pester MINDEF for early enlistment in January. Hopefully, it works out, but i've more or less accepted the fact of april enlistment, and the worry of findin something to do in those 140 days.

Sculpted@10:36 pm