2.25.2007
i admit.
i'm in the doldrums now.
something isn't clicking right anymore.
and the worse thing is that i can't pin-point out the source.
maybe in my whirlwind to "self-help" myself recently, i might have lost the general plot. leads me to wonder, am i really helping myself? or am i just bluffing to myself that i'm improving, that i'm on the positive track?
the inner sense of self-confidence (even arrogance) is now just a feature of the past. i need a heart-warming smile, an out-reached hand and an embrace.
sometimes, i just reminisce the good old days of being a child. all in life was fun, play, enjoy, relax (and maybe a bit of studying). mum was right, childhood is really childhood.
nevertheless, the empowerment one gains as one grows older is rather exciting. you get to choose ur own way, do things ur own style, etc. though ambiguity and consequence is always around to ruin it all up for you.
should be getting my driving license come end march, barring any safety infringement and bouts of bad luck. then again, my instructor has never fail to reprimand me, at least once per lesson, on reckless driving. i'm a soon-to-be road hazard.
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