3.27.2008
just had a showdown of sorts with my management at work today. didn't get what we want at all, only got a talking off in return. in short, it was a valiant attempt, but oh wells :(
but actually, the management implanted quite an interesting idea of going back to them for work during my uni break. considering that it's in the operations side, i might get to learn a thing or two with an internship there. what's more i'm taking a biz degree... hrmm... ?
on the brighter side, we got our contract extended till 16th may. so that means i will kinda work the longest possible before i fly to europe. not to mention all the leisure surfing i get to enjoy at work, so it ain't that bad :X
besides, i need all the dough i can get. and to save it up as well, for uni expenses, as mentioned before.
was planning to regurgitate all the swirls and whirls in my mind these past few days, but i have decided to held back and keep it short. i should really go with the flow, as my mum would always say. and more importantly, to stop trying so hard. but it's a lot easier said than done. i should not have commit, and pulling back is so much harder than i ever want to admit. but in some sense, i do hope it's really working. yet in those aplenty moments of weakness, it comes back to haunt. every little things and actions, which have so profoundly affected me, lingers on everywhere.
i take too much notice and take much unnecessary heed of things/words. but i can't really help it. i can't shut out and ignore. to pretend not to see?
it's time to cool off, to chew slowly and to let go.
Sculpted@11:52 pm
