i was running this road, winding n curving
initially, there was notions of to stop running
dark sky, leg pain, laziness, etc.
as i ran, it got tough, tiredness was trying to stop me
but the more i ran, it felt great to see things around
sometimes i overtake people
sometimes people over take me
sometimes, i see people walking
people on the sides playing soccer
engaging in their own activities
i see myself jogging along that little path, knowing that it will end some way
yet doesn't stop me from jogging
sometimes i jog
sometimes i could be faster
sometimes i saw a pretty girl to make me wanna run faster
but the more i ran, the more tired i know i was becoming, and that i was heading home
and yet i know, the next day, i would be running again
with the inertia to start running again, looking ahead at the journey before it starts.
but at least i knew i was running and not hiding in oblivion facades.

so many machines within. so many questions but the paradoxes limits.
have the capability to hold them back and then talk about to reclaim back more of what was lost. to utilise them for my own will. having mastery over them would be the aim.

Sculpted@9:53 pm

feeling pretty shitty now.
it is as TNT had said, about dust being shaken up and creating a sandstorm?
or is it just mere delusions?

anyways, hermit weekend up ahead.

maybe i have over believed in what I have been fed, believed in what i thought i saw, actually, behind that veil, is much much more. as if it was always a conspiracy out to sucker me in.
am i starting to see the flaws in the plan now?

Security, Sensation, Power.
What is it so entangling?

Sculpted@12:32 am

no regrets of the past.
acceptance of others of their ideals.
and passing no judgment.

is there more to it than just mere security, sensation and power?

Sculpted@1:57 am

apparently, my flu is more irritating than I thought it would be. it's almost gone, but ALMOST is the word. okay, then again, maybe I did kinda pushed it with 2 soccer matches yesterday. and my superbly aching calves and thighs are a good indication of lack of muscular fitness :(

one's going over for studies, the other is getting married. well, it's not that both would be gone totally, but still it is starting to get rather :(
I wonder what uni would hold in store for.

to jiajia, i'm sure you know of my well-wishes. you definitely be missed. and all the best to you in the land of kangaroos :)
please ask if there's anything. gotta feedback to your parents about their precious daughter as well. ha :X

Course homework is really tough and draining.
So much to do (in all areas), yet not enough to give.
can giving does not involve expecting receiving?

Sculpted@12:08 am

Listening to the Les Miserables soundtrack brings back fond memories. Please don't ask how i got it. :p

I remember watching the first musical, Wicked, in London. Not that it wasn't spectacular or engaging, just that I thought it was not worth it. ( I was paying big amounts of pounds for it.)

Thankfully, the other 3 managed to convince me otherwise to watch Les Miserables. The moment I heard the overture with its steady drum beats and powerful lyrics, I knew I was hooked. Thoroughly enjoyed the show is quite a big understatement, and it was quite a pity that on the last night back in London, there was not sufficient time to catch another musical.

And yes, I have my Europe trip pictures with me now, but am too lazy to do anything, till have compiled it all together with inputs from the others. For now, just let me enjoy the songs and the memories reliving itself again :)

Sculpted@3:34 am

Here I am, coughing my lungs out.
And yet no where closer to getting over my jet lag.
Sleeping right on sync with the London hours these few days, albeit watching too much Euro 2008 plays a big part.
(Yes, the Dutch are irresistable! woohoo!)

Feeling very under the weather these few days. At least, spirits got lifted a bit by some very painful pimples squeezing -_-"
unfortunately, could not attend a few activities that I really wanted to these past few days, and am feeling quite bad about it. but, my physical health is no shape what so ever. craps.

that was 8 hacking coughs in 3.5 minutes to type this entry.
nice.

Sculpted@5:33 am

yes, i'm back from my euro trip!

unfortunately, i would not be in the right spirits to be blogging much about it, as i have wonderfully left my camera in london (i.e. no pics yet) and i have left my dutifully kept journal on the plane back from bangkok (i.e all entries gone). Let's not bitch about the "co-operation" from the airline I "received" in attempting to "help" me "search" for my journal.

don't get me wrong. the trip was very much enjoyable, with quite a few breath-taking moments, inspirational artistic experiences, wild partying nights, cross-cultural understandings and an excellent respite. there will be an entry on that.

but, as i'm currently extremely jet lagged now and feeling very physically screwed up, I shall just camp and wait for the next euro match to start. hopefully, the weekend would provide a much need rest to recuperate from the physical wear.

somehow, university term commencement is very much nearer than felt.

and there's seem to be a lot of issues to re-connect to, as well. though logically, it's more of an update of things, but somehow I can't help but feel affected and to an unfortunate extent, responsible.

all these have somehow culminate into the "screwed up" feeling i am experiencing right now. hopefully, it would dissipate along with the tiredness when I have re-log everything about the trip from scratch. and more importantly, after I have camped it out in my cave.

Sculpted@2:37 am